Lately, I’ve been feeling dark. Like I’m surrounded by darkness.
Sometimes, I get nervous about darkness. It’s not often portrayed in a positive way. Often being seen as negative and depressing. And everything that I have been taught about darkness tells me that I should be nervous. That I should be weary of sitting in it for too long. Because it would eat me up and completely devour me and I wouldn’t be able to dig my way out if I let myself fall too deep.
However, it’s important to beware of drowning in your darkness. Be careful not to feed your darkness with more darkness. Feeding negative energy with negative energy will only result in an endless cycle of negative energy and that is never safe or productive.
There’s a reason for all of this, I’m sure. If there’s anything I’ve learned in my evolution, it’s that there is learning and growth in everything.
With that being said, I ask myself: What is darkness?
To me, darkness is those moments, memories, and emotions that gives you pause and makes you question everything. Darkness is a wound that needs healing and is begging you for attention. In darkness, we find ourselves second guessing, doubting, and many times releasing or crying. It’s not a place that usually leaves us smiling and feeling happy, but if we see it in a different way, I believe it could.
There are so many resources on how to find your way out of darkness. A simple google search will give you all the guidance you need on that subject. But what about finding your way through? I mean, how can we embrace and appreciate the light that we’re all desperate to find if we haven’t experienced the dark?
And what about all of those times that we crave darkness when our world seems to be falling apart? Turning the lights off and pulling the curtains closed. Something about it offers reflection and welcomes release…
I believe that we are spirits living a human experience. And part of this human experience is going through the duality and contrast of life.
Happiness and sadness.
Stillness and movement.
Life and death.
Low vibrational experiences and High vibrational experiences.
And learning and growing from each end and everywhere in between. Darkness is just another part of that contrast in this human experience. It is a part of life. And instead of constantly trying to find our way out of it, we can better evolve if we try to find our way through it:
Where did this dark thought/feeling come from?
Does this belong to me? Or, am I carrying someone else’s darkness?
Have I experienced this before? Is there a pattern?
How can I learn from this situation?
There is a reason for everything. When in the face of darkness, our first instinct is to run the other way. Darkness does not always feel great, but neither does recovering from a surgery. In both cases, we cannot recognize all of the healing taking place, but we will see it eventually.
How do you work with your darkness?